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YOUTH FICTION

by Lucas of Maine

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1.
I CHOOSE 02:29
Life is a game I want to play I choose player two I choose player two I choose player two Life is a game I want to play I choose player two I choose player two I choose player two (player two) Life is a game I want to play I choose player two I choose player two I choose player two Life is a game I want to play I choose player two I choose player two I choose player two Life is a game and I want to play
2.
BELL THE CAT 03:29
I know you got a confession So dramatic! Gotta have it! Give you all of the attention I’m ecstatic! And sarcastic! Let's hear about your decompression Man it’s tragic! So traumatic! How will you go learn your lesson? Feed the catnip! Be the catnip! Ok ok ok ok I’ll play your stupid game Running all around with all the phonies and the lames I’ll wait I’ll wait I’ll wait I’ll wait I’ll wait all through the day Let you go first, if I did it’d be a shame Welcome to the house Keep quiet like a mouse Make your first move count ‘Cause the kitty cat she’s coming for the pounce Bell bell bell bell bell bell bell bell bell the cat, the cat Bell bell bell the cat Bell bell bell bell bell bell bell bell bell the cat, the cat Bell bell bell the cat Bell bell bell bell bell bell bell bell bell the cat, the cat Bell bell bell the cat Bell bell bell bell bell bell bell bell bell the cat, the cat Bell bell bell the cat I know you got a confession So dramatic! Gotta have it! Give you all of the attention I’m ecstatic! And sarcastic! Let's hear about your decompression Man it’s tragic! So traumatic! How will you go learn your lesson? Feed the catnip! Be the catnip! Ok, alright It’s time, tonight Ok, alright It’s time, tonight Ok, alright It’s time, tonight Ok, alright It’s time, I’ll bell the cat tonight Bell bell bell bell bell bell bell bell bell the cat (the cat), the cat (the cat) Bell bell bell the cat Bell bell bell bell bell bell bell bell bell the cat (the cat), the cat (the cat) Bell bell bell the cat Bell bell bell bell bell bell bell bell bell the cat (the cat), the cat (the cat) Bell bell bell the cat Bell bell bell bell bell bell bell bell bell the cat (the cat), the cat (the cat) Bell bell bell the cat I know you got a confession
3.
KEEP QUIET 04:00
Keep quiet, keep quiet, keep quiet Stay silent, don’t move Just look around the room Keep quiet, don’t lose Just follow all the rules Stay silent, don’t move Just look around the room Keep quiet, don’t lose Just follow all the rules Stay silent, don’t move Just look around the room Keep quiet, don’t lose Just follow all the rules Stay silent, don’t move Just look around the room Keep quiet, don’t lose Just follow all the rules Keep quiet, keep quiet, keep quiet Keep quiet, keep quiet, keep quiet Keep quiet, keep quiet, keep quiet I’m running out of moves to play I’m needing more (I’m needing more) I’m zoning out of words to say I’ve been here before (I’ve been here before) I’m trying hard to breakaway From this quiet storm (From this quiet storm) Can’t hear me call your name? I’m beneath the floor (I’m beneath the floor) Keep quiet, keep quiet, keep quiet Never gonna pull a dirty restart I know you put me here for a reason It’s time to go and break some hearts I do it almost every season I’m operating at one hundred percent You know I’lls always be your go to man I’m making up some memories I won’t forget I’m gonna do everything I can Keep quiet, keep quiet, keep quiet Keep quiet, keep quiet, keep quiet Keep quiet, keep quiet, keep quiet I’m running out of moves to play I’m needing more (I’m needing more) I’m zoning out of words to say I’ve been here before (I’ve been here before) I’m trying hard to breakaway From this quiet storm (From this quiet storm) Can’t hear me call your name? I’m beneath the floor (I’m beneath the floor) Stay silent, don’t move Just look around the room Keep quiet, don’t lose Just follow all the rules (keep quiet, keep quiet, keep quiet) I’m running out of moves Keep quiet, don’t lose I’m zoning out of words Stay silent, don’t move Keep quiet, don’t lose I’m trying hard to break Stay silent, don’t move (Ha ha ha ha) Keep quiet, don’t lose Just follow all the rules Can’t you hear me call You will never be like me Clockwork is superior I am immortal
4.
DESTROYER 03:50
What do you want? What do you need? At your service For a free fee I’ll do anything That you want me to You’ll respect me Like I always do What do you want? What do you need? I’m array now Come and test me Come and test me I know it's hard sometimes Soon you’ll be recognized for The things I’d do for you I’ll make your every move I'll change your wrongs to right You’ll live your life through mine I’ll do it all for you I’ll do it all for you I’ll be your destroyer, destroyer I’ll be your destroyer, destroyer Tell me what you want me to do for you Tell me how to show up with an attitude Do I even know ‘em though? Like is the person personal? Like is this someone you know I appreciate? Is this someone that only you hate? You know I hate the word hate You know I have my limits Sometimes you lose control Your rage just overflows You push me past my limits I think it's time you know Just what your future holds What do you want? What do you need? You got problems Three that I see You’re a deviant You’re a mistake You’re a pretty bad person who manipulates What do you want? What do you need? You got problems They affect me You know what I’ll be I’ll be your destroyer, destroyer I’ll be your destroyer, destroyer What do I want? What do I need? I got problems Now that I see What you made me oh What do I want? What do I need? I got problems Now that I see What you made me oh I’ll be your destroyer, destroyer
5.
TRASH 04:06
1 2 3 4 5 6 7 8 bags already stacked up in my backyard (backyard) Don’t you ever think about how I have so many all ready to discard (discard) Don’t throw your trash in my backyard oh my backyard is full (my backyard is full) If I find your trash in my backyard I’ll throw it back in yours (throw it back in yours) Don’t throw your trash in my backyard oh my backyard is full (my backyard is full) If I find your trash in my backyard I’ll throw it back in yours (throw it back in yours) Do you ever really see what you’re doing to me Do you ever even feel sentimental (you don’t) Do you realize (you don’t) what your doings for free You don’t and it’s detrimental To my mental caged up in a kennel I’m not a vessel and no i’m not a rental I’m a pencil, snapping to the tempo You passed the limit better watch out for revenge oh Don’t throw your trash in my backyard oh my backyard is full (my backyard is full) When I throw your trash in your backyard you’ll get what you deserve (you’ll get what you deserve) Don’t throw your trash in my backyard oh my backyard is full (my backyard is full) When I throw your trash in your backyard you’ll get what you deserve I said I said I said I said, I said, I said, I said I said I said I said I said, I said, I said, I said I said, I said, I said, I said I said, “What’s the meaning of baggage if it’s really just shit? What’s the meaning of baggage if it’s really just shit I said, “What’s the meaning of baggage if it’s really just shit? What’s the meaning of baggage if it’s really just shit I don’t know (I don’t know) I don’t care (I don’t care) Who you are (Who you are) ‘Cause I’m aware (‘Cause I’m aware) I don’t know (I don’t know) I don’t care (I don’t care) Who you are (Who you are) ‘Cause I’m aware (‘Cause I’m aware) Now that I am winning winning winning winning Win win win win win win win win Now that I am winning winning winning winning Win win win win win win win win Now that I am winning winning winning winning Win win win win win win win win Now that I am winning winning winning winning Winning winning winning winning Don’t throw your trash in my backyard oh my backyard is full (my backyard is full) When I throw my trash in your backyard I’ll get what I deserve (get what I deserve) Don’t throw your trash in my backyard oh my backyard is full (my backyard is full) When I throw my trash in your backyard I’ll get what I deserve (get what I deserve) Freedom, freedom, freedom, freedom Freedom, freedom, freedom The choking game
6.
That’s health, that’s integration That’s what we are here to do every morning Before we get started we always om That’s a chakra attack Hey Cheryl! Yes Dr. Ray What’d I just say? Om I don’t know who to blame when it comes to the games that we play everyday When it’s said and done It’s friendly fire I don’t know what we gain when it comes to pain that we face anyway Double hit and run It’s friendly fire Playing Simpsons hit and run (ok) You be the pedestrian (uh huh) Hide like a chameleon (alright) This could be a little fun (yeah) Tell me what you got to lose Yeah you can drive next where’s the rendezvous (yeah, yeah, yeah) Speed it up I’m needing some (why) Elemental mania (whoa) Choose a fighter, choose a style (huh?) Suited for the stadium (yeah) You know what I’m ‘bout to do Yeah turn it up a level raise the altitude Oh it’s fucking hellfire raining down fire lord shit Got a hundred little problems that you really need to fix Always running from the source yelling “Appa Yip Yip” Better test your luck with the solar eclipse Gonna need new a rebellion the way I’m ‘bout to blast I don’t see a problem if my turn will everlast Every bit of you will be forgotten in the past Shit my game just crashed I don’t know who to blame when it comes to the games that we play everyday When it’s said and done It’s friendly fire I don’t know what we gain when it comes to pain that we face anyway Double hit and run It’s friendly fire Are you watching a movie or watching a show? Will you be watching the next episode? Built by the youth yeah the shit’s fictional Paper and pencil ends up digital I got rid of those problems and new ones arose No hit and run keep my eyes on the road What holds you back? Is it something you know? (Is it something you know?) If you know me I would never switch it up I will always give it you unplugged Gutted down to the bones and the dirt and the dust Take it slow so I’ll never slip up Keep the game going play it so you know it won’t rust (yeah) Tell me who do you trust (yeah) Tell me who do you lust (yeah) Tell me who do you love, love, love, love Bless you bless me I see defeat from we to he to she to me I seem to be Drifting in the water in a undertow Some emotions always seem to overload Receipts received don’t seem to free me from the sea but I’ll still reach until I believe If I start another episode I’ll be player one playing in control I don’t know who to blame when it comes to the games that we play everyday When it’s said and done It’s friendly fire I don’t know what we gain when it comes to pain that we face anyway Double hit and run It’s friendly fire
7.
SAFE RESTART 03:44
Sorry about yesterday (yesterday) I didn’t mean to say that (I didn’t mean to) I own my words alone (my words alone) And I wanna erase that (I wanna erase that) So can I get a safe restart I think it’s worth a try (I think it’s worth a try) ‘Cause you know what the best part is? We don’t gotta say goodbye You you caught me in a weird moment Talkin’ bout myself No nobody else I’m losing patience I take the anger out on you Then you feed it through the loop Stuck right on a level that the end game is to lose And I do every time Think it’s time I rewind Sorry about yesterday (yesterday) I didn’t mean to say that (I didn’t mean to) I own my words alone (my words alone) And I wanna erase that (I wanna erase that) So can I get a safe restart I think it’s worth a try (I think it’s worth a try) ‘Cause you know what the best part is? We don’t gotta say goodbye Hello can you hear me? I’m tryna glitch way my out From here Hello I think I know my way to safety I’ll find the reason now That I’m so sorry I’m sorry I’m sorry about yesterday (yesterday) I didn’t mean to say that (I didn’t mean to) I own my words alone (my words alone) And I wanna erase that (I wanna erase that) So can I get a safe restart I think it’s worth a try (I think it’s worth a try) ‘Cause you know what the best part is? We don’t gotta say goodbye
8.
FORGETFUL 03:38
Sometimes the safest way to restart is to simply just forget what happened Am I forgetful? Or do I only try to remember the good times? Should I be careful? Or should I only lie when I know that it’s alright? Am I forgetful? (Am I forgetful?) Or do I only try to remember the good times? Should I be careful? (Should I be careful?) Or should I only lie when I know that it’s alright? To be honest yeah I’m oblivious My mind’s stuck the in further like I’m in Insidious If your feeling modest I’d appreciate a hint So my forgetful ways don’t make you feel mysterious I’ll use my brain power to remember your first name I hope that that’s enough cause I won’t try your birthday If you get mad at me I’ll still forget what you say Cause I would rather make my momma proud by winning first place Am I forgetful? Or do I only try to remember the good times? Should I be careful? Or should I only lie when I know that it’s alright? Am I forgetful? (Am I forgetful?) Or do I only try to remember the good times? Should I be careful? (Should I be careful?) Or should I only lie when I know that it’s alright? (Show me your moves!) Hippopotamus Hippocampus Slower than a praying mantis My animal brain it’s branded Old major this my planet Welcome to my side of the mountain Frightful by my side she a falcon When they say silence is the loudest I can hear my mind it’s shouting (Falcon punch!) Running up and up and down gymnastic animal Even when I’m going slow I always lose control (I always lose control) Driving through my life I know my heart is on patrol I know that I am special I know that I’m forgetful Am I forgetful? Or do I only try to remember the good times? Should I be careful? Or should I only lie when I know that it’s alright? Am I forgetful? (Am I forgetful?) Or do I only try to remember the good times? Should I be careful? (Should I be careful?) Or should I only lie when I know that it’s alright? Am I forgetful? I know that I am special I know that I’m forgetful Should I be careful? I know that I am special I know that I’m forgetful Am I forgetful? I know that I am special I know that I’m forgetful Should I be careful? I know that I am special I know that I’m forgetful
9.
In the schoolyard In the schoolyard I’ll see you in the schoolyard (okay!) In the schoolyard I’ll see you in the schoolyard In the schoolyard I’ll see you in the schoolyard In the schoolyard I’ll see you in a minute you just wait right over there (wait right over there) I’ll see you in a minute leave your footsteps in the air (your footsteps in the air) I’ll see you in the schoolyard (okay!) In the schoolyard I’ll see you in the schoolyard (yeah, yeah) In the schoolyard Playing all these games I’ve never played before Walking on the tightest rope I’m overgrown I will never fall that is all I know I can’t even draw a line I’ve never crossed before Wanna have lunch after brunch Wanna just go with my gut Wanna just build up some trust Wanna give you what you want Wanna just talk on the phone Wanna keep you on the low Wanna with you not alone Wanna with you all alone In the schoolyard In the schoolyard I’ll see you in the schoolyard (okay!) In the schoolyard I’ll see you in the schoolyard In the schoolyard I’ll see you in the schoolyard In the schoolyard I’ll see you in a minute you just wait right over there (wait right over there) I’ll see you in a minute leave your footsteps in the air (your footsteps in the air) I’ll see you in the schoolyard (okay!) In the schoolyard I’ll see you in the schoolyard (yeah, yeah) In the schoolyard A taboo topics got a time and place for sure Last time for the record I just froze it in the snow Now that winters over I think that it’s time you know The man right in my mirror he just walked right out the door I been directing my own movie from behind the sidelines I been working so efficiently not thinking about the time I been playing so damn passively but now I’m in control In the schoolyard up from two to one and now I am afloat yeah I am afloat now I am afloat In the schoolyard up from two to one and now I am afloat yeah I am afloat now I am afloat Now that winters over I think that it’s time you know In the schoolyard In the schoolyard I’ll see you in the schoolyard (okay!) In the schoolyard I’ll see you in the schoolyard In the schoolyard I’ll see you in the schoolyard In the schoolyard I’ll see you in a minute you just wait right over there (wait right over there) I’ll see you in a minute leave your footsteps in the air (your footsteps in the air) I’ll see you in the schoolyard (okay!) In the schoolyard I’ll see you in the schoolyard (yeah, yeah) In the schoolyard Feeling liberated in the schoolyard Everybody’s naked in the schoolyard I don’t really wanna say I fooled ya But I fooled ya
10.
I just wanna live my life in truth I hope that it is nothing really new to you I won’t say I’m sorry Welcome to the party And if I follow through Will you still be the person that I always knew I won’t say I’m sorry Welcome to the party You don’t know what it’s like to be All alone with company I don’t wanna even talk no more Even though I never spoke up before What we talking bout? Lemme get it right Look in my eyes They move from side to side One goes left and the other goes right It’s so hard to see straight cause I just wanna live my life in truth I hope that it is nothing really new to you I won’t say I’m sorry Welcome to the party And if I follow through Will you still be the person that I always knew I won’t say I’m sorry Welcome to the party (All this because you can’t fly) Look both ways I’ve done that the whole time You are late I’m the reason why Don’t say hey with that look in your eyes You’ll just make me want to cry This timeline is built like mission Will I win that’s my own decision Built the bars to my mental prison Now they’re gone it’s my time to glisten I have wasted so many wishes It is time for people to listen I feel like a glitch in the system I just wanna live my life in truth I hope that it is nothing really new to you I won’t say I’m sorry Welcome to the party And if I follow through Will you still be the person that I always knew I won’t say I’m sorry Welcome to the party My eyes are crooked but I see the way you look at me My eyes are crooked and I know this ain’t no make believe My eyes are crooked cause I see the way you look at me Do you look at me? Will you look at me? Thanks pal, for your first time out you did pretty well!
11.
STRADLATER 03:33
If you ask me how I’m doing I would probably just lie To refine my answer I’d say I’m quite alright If you wanna be a nuisance Dig up deep inside You can go and take a lantern To my dreams at night I don’t want to play this game anymore, anymore I won’t hide behind my face anymore, anymore Yeah, if you ask me how I’m doing I would probably still lie But if you really want an answer Look beneath my eyes It’s my heart that’s racing And my minds in drive I’m just always thinking If the questions right Who are you? Are you? Who are you? Are you? (Are you? Are you? Are you?) Are you my Stradlater? (Are you? Are you? Are you?) Are you my Stradlater? I think I know now I think I know now I think I know now I think I know my answer I tried way too hard to fly I’m more like Holden in the rye I just walk alone Now I know my answer No this time it’s not a lie Yeah I’m doing quite alright Now that I am whole I got full control I chose player two for you, for you It ends here

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THIS IS YOUTH FICTION. AS A KID, I LOVED VIDEO GAMES, MOVIES, AND BOOKS BECAUSE THEY GAVE ME A CHANCE TO BE THE MAIN CHARACTER. THIS ALBUM IS AN ATTEMPT AT BECOMING THE MAIN CHARACTER OF MY OWN LIFE.

listen to the whole thing and let me know where you hear yourself.

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released October 2, 2020

All songs written, produced, and performed by Lucas Deely.
Guitar on track 7 by Alex Deely

Mastered at Penhill Industriosonics

Album art by Marcelese Cooper

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Lucas of Maine Kennebunk, Maine

telling stories with synthesizers since 1998

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